(for a little background see this post.)
First, there are the reactions of friends and acquaintances. I run the risk . . .er . . 'the fact' of some not understanding. Their first question might be: "Why?" while they are probably thinking: "She's crazy!" They more than likely are thinking of themselves in this situation, that they will miss my participation, and what are they going to do in my absence. I worry about that too, as I do not want to leave them 'understaffed', so to speak. I do understand that this concept of taking oneself 'away from it all' is a little different. Society, these days, seems to dictate that we need to be part of a community to be complete. That we are just a specific cog in the works! And we are nothing, if we are not a part of the group! I reject the thought that I am not of value if I don't conform, if I 'm not a blender in the group. ( My quilter persona shows here--blender fabric!) So much for my rant.
Second, it will be hard for me to change my ways. We all get into ruts, and I have been falling into a path that is actually not leading me in the right direction. I have been frustrated, stymied, and bored. I knew it was leading nowhere, but didn't want to face stopping. Then what would I do? Where would I go? I am a doer. I can't be idle, or so I thought.
Well, how do I begin? Today I sat on my upstairs patio for breakfast and started my day watching the blue jays, finches and robins in the tree tops. Quite refreshing really. Listening to their calls, watching the pine needles sway with their inhabitants activities.